What's the Pointe?

Just when things are amazing.. its get even better!
It's like when you fall down, you fall hard, and when you rise up, its WAAAAY up.

Well not only is 2 classes a week enough to send me off into happy-ballet-zombie land where a permanent smile and a constant releve here, or tendu there every min or so leaves me looking strange....


but now my teacher has mentioned that I..  (thanks to some awesome girls in my class putting on their brave faces and requesting it) and them will OMG... I can hardly write it out, without nearly jumping up and down in joy.... will be...... GOING ON POINTE IN THE NEW YEAR!!!!!

OH MY FREAKING GAWD!

I am beyond excited, my poor boyfriend has to listen to me go on and on about it. lol but I cant wait!
This was / is my biggest goal ever, and to think that I might be soooo lucky to accomplish something so amazing in only 5-6 months since starting ballet... for the VERY FIRST TIME?!!! Oh, did I mention I have never, ever, ever dance anything at all in my entire life? Nope.. no slow prom dance for me... no kick back have fun in teen dances.... I was always glued to the nearest chair, My group of friends and I were "too cool" to dance...and "dancing if for losers" attitude. Whaaat?? Really... crazy teenagers!

oh but wait there's more...other then my absolute drunking dance sprees (thanks to my wonderful friends tossing the drinks down my throat for me) I have managed to make a fool of myself a couple times while attempting to "move to the music" too drunk to hear any tune in the music i was listening, and too drunk to care.....

So yeah, my poor teachers struggle with me to hear/use the music completely...

Hey,.. how did I get off topic here.. lol.... so yeah POINTE!!! ZOMG!

I think I can.. I think I can....

Well it just so happend that for some reason I decided that I was determined to take another ballet class. One class a week was just not cutting it for me, technique wise and obsession wise.. I was just NOT getting my fix!

So very nice class mate of mine suggested I look into another class... but, it was a harder and higher level. Well thats about all it took, before I knew it I was emailing the studio owner and asking/forcing myself into this higher level class.
She said sure I could try, and I replied immediately taking up her offer.

Well the days before my class I was a nervous wreck, what was I thinking?! I was going to be way over my head, and people would be annoyed that I was slowing them down.. ugh! how could I set myself up for such absolute failure?! Right?!


I almost talked myself out of it.. but I managed to go anyways.. where the courage came from... no idea.

I went..... and I LOVED IT! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVED IT!

I cant believe how afraid I was. Valuable life lesson learned....
So now I am taking 2 classes per week and I am super excited! yay!